"The Ides of March"

I am buried underneath this feeling that I might not make it through this
vodka slumber, I don't want to remember the way your lips felt on my chest
the way your hair always got messed up after your dress threw itself right to the floor
1 Two 3 Four
keep me up all night some more
my head is fucked
for once I'm fully clothed (kind of)
you know me
always been a liar
a leader
a lover
a dreamer
finally someone got the worst of me
took hold of all my insecurities

Think about the pictures
the years of trying to forget her
finally doesn't seem worth it
but okay now, back track
rewind to the facts
the way I Fucked you
put my lips up on you
lift your dress a little more
then drop it to the kitchen floor
You had me, I had you
and we slept right through the summer
only alive during the night
okay, I drank a little much and she would always want to fuck
but I loved the way she'd roll right into me
start breathing on my neck like I was all that's left inside her life
she needed me there like I needed her there
My baby knew just how to cause a scene
she never could just walk away and leave
Always hanging it over out heads that she was better than us I guess
Dark brown eyes, look into mine
crawl back in this bed tonight
I'm obviously out of my god damn mind that i would even think of you in this light or lack there of
I know that you don't
we know that they don't
So leave my head
but
if you find your way back to my doorstep
you won't even need to ring the bell
cause I've been waiting by myself
for your lights to shine around the corner and pull right in the drive way
a bottle of wine
a mountain to climb
but hey, that's always been our story...

You've taken all of me
i know it wasn't much
but i think it was just enough to not forget me

You're not coming back
I'm done with looking back
It's just nice to think of how it could have been

I think I'm Lost again